I don't like to throw stuff away because I convince myself that I may need it at some point, justifying the fact that I must of obtained it for some good reason in the first place so the best solution would be to put it somewhere nearby where it will be readily accessible.
Except it doesn't become readily accessible at all because I treat everything in the same way, resulting in multiple piles, bulging drawers and jam packed shelves of; files, articles, gadgets, gizmos, books, magazines, research pieces, mementos, notebooks, memory sticks, business cards and much, much more besides, meaning any value a particular item did have disappears or is simply forgotten, lost in the noise or rather clutter of all the other indispensable 'things' around it.
I've been sitting amidst a few more piles than normal of late because I have been spinning a few more plates than normal;
- writing a five day foundation course,
- applying for two courses to be assessed for accreditations
- re-writing the MPG programme to give just as much in half the time, cranking up the search for a new place to expand the OMNI brand
- websites
- forums
- clients
- accountants
and so on and so forth. The good news is that I have completed all of the above. The bad news is having taken my foot off the gas (temporarily!) I sit at my desk and realise I haven't used one bit of the two ton of crap that surrounds me now and have accrued over recent months.
It's scattered around the floor, on shelves, on radiators, in boxes - reams of material I thought I would need but discover I clearly didn't (or don't think I did!) because I already had everything in my head and all the resources necessary to do what was needed.
In fact that's great, all the stuff my students and client's are going to get in the courses, certifications and workshops is going to be 100% good stuff - no padding, no guff, no bits stuck on, just all me and I am actually very proud of that. Unfortunately it does mean I have a bloody big spring clean to do.
Spring cleans should be simple. You are throwing away something that has at some point become clearly not needed. Whatever reason you kept it for has passed and if you didn't need it for the reason you think you may have needed it, you definitely are not going to need it for something else. That is how it should be.
And the best time you should do your spring clean is when you are feeling empowered and you have the most clarity and the decisiveness that is needed.
Because spring cleans can become a pain in the arse very quickly if you don't.
Have you ever begun to clear out a kitchen or bedroom drawer and the next thing you know four hours have passed, you haven't thrown hardly anything away and your mood has shifted, sometimes for the better, but often for the worse?
Well one of two things has generally happened. The first is that you begin to create doubt in your mind that the things you are getting rid of were or are quite as useless as you previously thought and that maybe they will become useful at some point and then, well then you wouldn't have them!
SO, you ponder, you go back and forth internally deciding their fate, their worth, their value and as soon as you let that happen a few times your doomed. That doubt creeps in and the spring clean is either abandoned or you finish it feeling deflated.
The second thing that may have happened is that you may get caught up in the sentiment or emotions attached to things, maybe a time that they represented, or who gave them to you and it sways you to the point that it wouldn't be right to let them go. So you tick yourself off both for wasting time and ultimately and frustratingly not achieving anything.
I am sure many of us have been guilty of this in the past. I know I have.
So let's go back to that ideal time to spring clean, when you're feeling good, why is it so easy then?
Well when feeling strong and empowered we are at our most confident and confidence is one hell of a valuable resource. It is functionally resourceful, for focusing on things objectively and we can see the true value and meaning of things and this includes the crap we collect in our lives and need to throw out.
When we are not at our best we tend to err on the side of caution and even if something has served no purpose for the last six months or six years, we strangely worry about the one day it might, so we keep it.
Also if our self esteem is lacking a little do we not attach some unwarranted value to sentiment that we wouldn't if we felt good about ourselves?
Thinking about it, isn't all of this talk about spring cleaning just a metaphor for how our subconscious minds functions and sometimes malfunctions and how our behaviour can become unproductive and irrational in response to memories, emotions, defensiveness and doubt.
Of course it is. But I actually do need to clear out lots of junk.
I just know I can do it easily because I have all the resources I need, that the junk hindered rather than helped anything I was trying to do and that if I don't throw it away and heed the lesson positive lessons unwanted mess gives me, the next time I need to get something done I will just have more shit to wade through at some point.
Is it time you focused on the real value of things and gave yourself a spring clean too?